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- last entry / next entry - 2004-01-14 | 6:50 p.m.
stressed... Yeah... So I havent written in like .... 4-5 months. I was just really busy with school and all. I actually completely forgot that I had an account. I decided to read my sisters and get updated because I was bored.. which inspired me to write in my own. Yeah so I'm just sitting here alone. Darin has a second job now so I am home alone all the time now. It really sucks because even though I do see him and it is wonderful everytime I do, I constantly miss him. I feel pathetic. I don't see how my sister can do it... at all. Staying at home all the time makes you think a whole lot about things. I've been crying a whole lot lately..
Well what has happened. My first semester of PTA school was awesome.. I'm so excited to finish. uhmm... Darin got me a beaaaaautiful promise ring for christmas... I love him so much... I seriously believe that god has set him out for me so that I will have him for the rest of my life...And the weird part is, I KNOW he loves me just the same. I've never felt this way about anyone before. So we hit our year and a half marker.. it was great even though I was completely sick all freakin day long. So school starts Jan 20th... And so since I would have to have mon/tues off work, and convergys doesn't have a schedule with those days off, I have to quit. Wonderful timing huh? Its going to be extremely difficult to find a job that will work with my schedule and pay me what I need to be paid in order to survive. So I'm completely stressing. Last mo my gramma sent me $400 to buy myself some clothes and use it only on me nothin else.... I wound up using it on bills and christmas stuff. Today she called and she asked if I had gotten it. I was worried that she was going to ask what I bought... :o( I dont want to disappoint her but I really needed it for bills. Everytime i say something, ANYTHING shay has to make it seem like she's better. It annoys the living fuck out of me. I'm like god, cant you get your own life or statements? I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT! I'm so sick of being at home.. If i didnt have to work, I wouldn't , but if I wasnt going to school I would work 2 jobs! I am so so so so so sick of being at home by myself. And now that im going to quit convergys I just want to quiiiiiiit im SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SICK of that fucking job. I wish all of the directv customers would stick a dish up their asses and see how that feels. you try getting yelled at, annoyed, yelled at, annoyed, getting dumbfounded questions, and talking to IDIOTS ALL FUCKING DAY LONG>?!?!?! ITS NOTTTTT THAT WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh. I will never ever ever go back to that shithole. I advise people to STAY AWAY!!!! anyways, I'll quit jabbing for now.. But I'll definitely keep updated from now on..... - last entry / next entry - |
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